Poem: Nowhere Left to Turn

I didn't get to post my usual weekly post last week because I've been dealing with some stuff. I can't write when my mind won't cooperate. So since I still haven't gotten around to finishing a post I thought I'd share a poem that I've been working on. This is the rough draft, the poem obviously needs some work but it does explain a little bit about what I've been dealing with. 

Nowhere Left to Turn

I feel trapped with nowhere to go.
A loneliness surrounds me

I’m suffocating, I can't break free.

I'm filled with doubt
 Second guessing every thought,

 Bridges burn, Nowhere left to turn,

Skilled in avoiding what’s bothering me.
How can I begin to let someone in 

 I can't let the feelings creep in.

I'm on autopilot, I’ve become numb.

Once so vigilant noticing every detail,

Now people talk and I don’t even hear them.

I’m not like everyone else,
 I’m semi-functional at best,
It's all so draining, I can't be myself

 They will never understand me,

Or respect my boundaries,

That's why I can’t commit,

When I have to hide who I really am
There's nothing left to talk about
So I avoid my phone and end up alone

Here are some of my other Poems.

PS. Check out the Crystal Healing Trees I make myself. They are super pretty and I find they can be very soothing and healing.